I don’t know what’s going on. Over the last few nights, anytime I am in my bed alone, I just break down. I don’t know why. I am happy with my life right now. I have a good job, I get frustrated with it at times, but o truly love the people I work with and enjoy what I do. I have an amazing man that loves me to the point I question what I could have done right to deserve someone like him. I have my family, my friends, my animals. I am doing well in school. Things finally feel like they are going right.
I don’t really feel alone, I don’t feel sad, I’m not overly happy; just overly emotional? The second I am no longer distracted by something, I lose it. I can’t fall asleep, I’m exhausted but can’t seem to sleep. I just cry and struggle to breathe. It scares me. If I can distract myself, I’m fine. It it’s laying in the quiet, in the dark, alone that see,s to be doing me in.